Hope?

Hopes up, Hopes Down... My hopes have been fully turned round,
always known what i want, but i cant seem to reach it, so until that
moment ima sit here and preach it, preach what? you say, preach how ive been feeling everysingle day, since that moment in my life i made a mistake, to someone my made my heart become awake, feelings so strong and have felt them for so long, i dont know why i did what i did, and in the manner it was done, but thats in the past and i want you to hear where im coming from, i put on a smile and pretend everythings great, but for that special feeling again is what i await, i dont know when or if it'll ever be again, but i just want you to know what i have is real and still there, and if you feel just a little somthing is still within, then please allow me to have the last chance i dont deserve, for i want to cater to you and no one else... and lets make this weird spot on the road of life just a dismantled curve...